October 2011
I have an indelible history to my life that I will never stop being ashamed of. I have dirty, broken pieces left scattered, and scars that mar what I used to be. But fuck you. Because you don’t believe that I’m trying. Fuck you, and everything you believe about me, everything you tell me. I might be shameful and worthless, but you are beastly, depraved, corrupt, vile, and full of...
I have a therapist appointment this week. And I know exactly what he’s gonna ask. How am I feeling about the break-up? How’s school? Is it too stressful? How’s work? Do I like it? Is it too stressful? Then there’s gonna be a pause.. An awkward silence for a few minutes. I’ll fidget with my thumbs and he’ll try and get me to look at him. Have you been eating? Why...
I’m so tired, but every time I fall asleep, I have bad dreams:(
And I’m so angry right now. Like, just fuck everything.
Message me (1) thing you want to know about me.
bitchesloveteganandsara:
please, help me get my mind off things.
Ugh, I have to go to the doctors. Apparently, my nightmares were just so bad last night that I was screaming. The only thing I remember about them last night is waking up and puking everywhere, then falling back asleep. God, that was probably the worst night’s sleep I’ve had in a while.
Send me questions I'll answer it: TRUTH OR LIE.
Dear future girlfriend
notestomyfuturegirlfriend:
Will you be the rose to my jack ? I promise we won’t die in such a horrid way, but it’s true my love will be undying.
Ps. I would love for you to pose for me when I sketch you ;)
Love me
If you need help, raise your hand.
I like people who have big dreams for themselves. Who want to BE something, not just another face, another number. People who want to make a difference, be a change, those are the people who I look up to. I never ever want to just be a face in the crowd. I’m determined to be so much more. I want to save people, help everybody who I come across, make life better for the people I meet. I will...
I wanna have a lazy date.
A day where we get in our pajamas, get millions of pillows and blankets, buy a lot of snacks, make a castle, watch tons and tons of movies, and just snuggle together. And why not, we’ll have a pillow fight too. Just a whole day, spending precious time with you… I’d do anything just to have this kind of day with you.
Dear Future Girlfriend,
notestomyfuturegirlfriend:
We should lock all the doors, close all the blinds, turn off our phones and computers and spend a day together, alone. Let’s build a fort in the living room and pretend that the rest of the world doesn’t exist. What would you say to hot chocolate, cuddling, a fire in the fireplace, and a marathon of Disney movies? I’m waiting for you, darling.
Love, Me
Your pocket, huh? Thats’s so damn adorable ^w^
<3
0414
Honei, you aren’t the only one who wishes I didn’t fuck up so bad all of the time:(
Nobody worth talking to is awake. This makes me sad.
Dear Future Girlfriend*,
notestomyfuturegirlfriend:
Let’s cuddle and watch Doctor Who. Then rewind it and watch the whole thing over because we missed it all having sex.
Love, Me.
Dear Future Girlfriend,
notestomyfuturegirlfriend:
You’re truly the most beautiful girl I have ever met, and I know we’ve talked about not getting into relationships etc but maybe the future holds some kind of wonderful occurrence for us.
I just want to let you know now, I like you a lot. I also hope you like me a lot, as much as I like you.
We can be cute little gay’s together :3
Love, Me
Dear Future Girlfriend: Dear Future Girlfriend, →
notestomyfuturegirlfriend:
I really wish I could curl up in your arms and just fall asleep to the sound of your heartbeat. I’m so tired, mi amor. I’m so tired of trying to be someone I’m not, of trying to stop loving someone who may or may not be you, of trying to keep myself form being bitter towards love. I’m working my…
I am so fucking idiotic.
This is seriously wtf did i just fucking write omg..
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yup.. alrighty then. cant type for shit ever. its just what i do when im thinking. i fuck around on my keyboard lol
Aaaaaaaaaaaaahhhhhhhhhhhhh!! … I don’t wanna open the messages thingy…
Fuck your shit. I said “Hey” “Hi.” is awkward and formal..
Damn me…
I’m not brave or courageous at all. I don’t leap at opportunities. I prefer to stay under the radar, low-risk. Taking chances and being out there is not something I do well. I was drunk. I have horrible judgement when I’m drunk. Hell, even when I’m sober. I do things I’ll regret, I’ll feel awkward about, that I’ll wish I could take back.
...
Oh… I waited too long… You got offline. I’m a slowpoke :c
Okay, no. Here we go. I am going to fucking do this. Goddammit, stop being a stupid fucking weenie. Do it. Just do it.
I will. I’m gonna do it.
Urgh… Help.
No, fuck. I can’t.
I’m just gonna do it. Just gonna fucking IM you. Fuck. I can do this. Right?
Dear Future Girlfriend,
notestomyfuturegirlfriend:
I will treat you like you are my queen. I will leave little poems on your nightstand every morning as a reminder of how perfect you are. I will gladly do whatever makes you happy because your happiness will be my own. I will take you out on creative dates. But most importantly, you will be treated with respect, compassion, and kindness. You will be truly loved with all...
Anon or not, put in my ask:
☼ I think you’re cute
✔ you have a nice blog
☯ we should be friends
♂ i’m a boy with a crush on you
♀ i’m a girl with a crush on you
✌ your blog is dope
♡ you’re my tumblr crush
✕ i don’t like your blog
Dear Future Girlfriend
notestomyfuturegirlfriend:
Your Amazing, Your Absolutely Perfect whether you believe it or not. That Smile, Those Lips That I can’t resist myself from kissing because it’s so hard that it’s tempting not to try them cause they look delicious. That Face, With pretty voice yet have a face of an angel sent from up above ready for me to take care of and love. I Can Keep Going on for days to remind...
